Wow, that's a lot to happen all at once. No wonder things seem bad. Sometimes when something bad happens it's tough, but when everything happens at once it can seriously zap your energy trying to deal with it. Can you get in to see your doctor about your AD's not working? Maybe you could keep taking them until he/she can help you? Quitting them abruptly without the advice of your doctor may not be a good idea. Can you speak to your manager about your reference? And how long were your aunt and uncle married? I hope that you can work through these things and that down the road things don't seem as bad. Life is not fair but these things are not your fault. Even with your failing year, if you've been seriously depressed and can't function there's only so much you can do. No one asks to be depressed. I know that I've been in a serious funk for a long, long time. It took a major depressive episode and being put off work by my doctor before I started to feel just a little bit better, but even a little bit is great compared to where I was. I just need some time to breath and get my head together, and get some drugs that work. Hang in there.