it was about, well i have to go back 8/9 years!
when i was passing the most beautiful & most gloomy days of my life, @ student of class 9!
as usal i was supposed to b the first in my class, but i had to sacrifice my roll no.1 for someone of my Teachers! no doubt i didn't quarrel with them, rather agreed with them, if i got some extra value from them!
my teachers loved me than anyone of my class, & i did get them wrong with a negative perspective! though i respect them at my best.

well, friends always keep me a litle-bit away from them, infact, i was always busy to think of bad & good peoples! & now i can't even remember all of those memories!

all the time, i just thought of someone best-friend! to share & care! & most of the time i'd like to say like this, "nobody gets me"!

when Rajib again came to study at my school, i thought i might be going to have my old & real friend! & i failed to catch him as well after 1 year! he found his stuffs at his department! while i was trying to make our friendshio stronger, he made his own separate! & simply i was loosing my other stuffs as well!

i'm a litle-bit immature from the very begining, & filled with emotions!
And i can't bear if someone abuse my emotions! my ego rises then at its highest rate!
so, i lost my networks as a student supposed to have!
i used to go to teachers for coaching classes like other students, & making fun all the time with them! infact, the fun lasted when it was finished! so, no learning, no experience!
i don't have experiences of a tour, or some places of my country! i didn't go out much except my home to school! & i was happy to think of that! after living 12 years continuously, i only knew our village market, my school, my college campus & my home!
no relatives, no friends to go with, no communities to talk to, no neighbors to gossip with! sometimes i used to play with my neighbor freind, but they all were opposite of me! may be because of my study level, my thinking level & my family! Actually most of them didn't even go to school!

well, this time i'm going to share something so thrilling of my life, though "Unsatisfactory"!
Anindita was a student of a girls shcool, came to my school when it's class 9! a part of my attitude was to not to go with any girls! even not to talk to them as well! [if it's not that much important!]! i started to think of her sometimes, while i didn't even know what's love!! it seems to me like that, "she looks at me, she admires me sometimes"!! & most of the time i wanted her to talk to me, while i got the ego to not to talk with any girls! gradually i started to believe girls never talk first, though i didn't even try to talk to her! except 1/2 days, when i used to go my coaching class & sometimes i faced her in my road! i offered her to come with me by my cycle, & she rejected by offering to walk with her until we reach our school!!!
& that was an exceptional thrilling moment for me, though i got fear of my known peoples!

[to be continued.......................]