Well....I had always hoped and planned how to make my life better. I was hoping the nightmare would end. I would conquer the world. I was almost successful. Everything was set. I was about to take the final step. I was so happy...... Then, I thought of looking back!and guess what!I made the biggest mistake in my life. I scrwed everything. I was doomed. Days passed,months passed. I needed a strong hand to slap me and bring me back from the wrong way I took. I needed the strong presence of my friend, my mate. But, that person waa so angry with my wrongdoings that he let me go. I was in the middle of nowhere. I woke up countless nights alone crying, choking. I was so desperate to get back to my normal self. finally, I did manage the courage to get back to my family, my parents.my mate did hold my hands when I was in the right track again. I hoped with all my heart that I survived the accident without any scratch. I did believe and manage to fool myself that I found my life, my normal, as usual self again. But, I am a bit wrong. In fact it's justified I guess. I do have to bear my wrongdoings. The spots can hardly fade away. Rather ird getting deeper everyday. I am the biggest fool. Why and how on earth can I even dream of having everything back to normal!