সবাই যা বলে আমি ঠিক তাই

আমি মাঝে মাঝে নিজেকে নিজের সাথে ঠিক মেলাতে পারি না । আমি মনে মনে অনেক কষ্ট পুশে রাখছি । কিন্তৃ অর্থহীন সব কষ্ট । কেন আমার তা জানা নেই । my recent study is not good at all. I am totally bored with my study. But I have no way. my admission exam will held on 7 nov & 31 oct. so i have to study... but i cant... age boro bhai bon der dekhtam HSC exam er por ora koto free silo.. kono family restriction silo na.. kintu amader shomoy eta ki holo? amar elaka te amar friend circle bolte amara matro 4 jon.. ek jon amar boro.. ek jon amar choto.. ar ekjon amar shthe e pore... amra shomo boyoshi holew amader charitrik kono mil nai.., ota murgi.. sharadin ghorer konay boshe boshe porbe ar jhimabe.. abar naki kon meyer shathe relation o naki ase... allah e jane kemne? amar ai shob bondhu bandov der niye ami besh bipode e asi.. ora shara din ghore boshe dim pare... r amma mone kore ora eshhorchondro biddashagor hoye gese.. ami porashuna kori na... result kharap kori,... amakew biddashagor hoite hobe.. na hoy man ejjoter proshno... shottikar orthe ami je jaigae boshobash kori,, sheta dhaka city er ekta adhunik tomo place holew, er manush jon mentally sick... bhabte e obak lage amar e shomoboyoshi ekta cheler ma amar ma er kase amar nam e aje baje kotha bole.. even pura elake te ota choriye dise... ajob.. jodio age bolesilam amara elakate 4 jon chele.. ta thik na... chele ar ekta se.. ex-notordemian.. ota mental... ar ase ekta meye... ami, oi murgi, mental r meye ta ek shathe e HSC diyesi.. ora shobai 5 .. but ami 3.9.... etar jonno amar moto opodartho ar ney.... shobar kase ami tuccho... jai hok ami je bish bochorer ekta chele amar parents eta bishwash e korte chai na.. tara bujhte chai na ami bujhi amar jonno konta bhalo konta kharap... tara always amake ekta restriction er majhe rakhte chai.... but ami bored... Ekhon porjonto kono meyer shathe amar kono relation hoy nai... amar shai rokom kono meye friend o nai.... jaw 3/4 jon silo, oder shathe amar pray 6 months kono communication nai... but amar bap-ma-bon mone kore kono meyer shathe amar relation ase.. oi meyer jonno amar porashunar durabostha.... but ami jani e na shai meyeta ke.... interesting bepar holo ami HSC pash korar por e ekta adorsho bekarer moto jibon japon korchi... bashar bajar kora theke shuru kore mota muti shob kaj e amar korte hochhe.. amar close friend jara ase, oder shathe adda dite jawa birat ekta jhamelar bepar... time money kono tai amake support kore na... shob cheye beshi support kore na amar family... adha ghontar jonno baire gele basha theke 10 ta call jabe... ar ami baire gele e important kaj ber hoye jabe.... post ta mone hoy onek boro hoye gelo... baki shob ar ekdin likhbo..