Welcome,sharifmazumder@hotmail.com Hellow there, In front of our home, an wedding ceremony is happening. The sound is so loud enough not to concentrate into writing. Even after that continuing. Mind is low, mood is off today. Feeling very bad. I want to expose the reason but feel it can be underutilized, at the end I would ending up hurting more. It is about getting favor from one person but have not got that much kind as I expected. Instead felt kind of distancing from him as if like I am going to hurt him or some kind of like I am an exotic creature Received low treatment even though everything was legally done. The music that is penetrating my home is melodious one. The day went on facing new kind of challenges. Every day is a new day and need to struggle to keep myself well. An uncertain future awaits and have to face that one. When I go outside and meet people, I find among them some are not happy. May be I don't look good or my certain attitude causing annoyance for them. They just keep shut down their mouth. I can't understand. Even if they are criticizing me, they are doing it behind my back. I am not getting the subject matter. If I don't find out my mistakes, how can I rectify myself? Probably I need to punch them to find out the proper ground anyway. Cannot focus in writing anymore as the music is in high pitch. May be later time. Desire to go to bed early tonight. SMH 26th December, 2012, Wednesday