আমার অনেক লিখতে ইচ্ছে করে... কিন্তু আমি একেবারেই লিখতে পারি না..........

I beg ur perdon.. coz this is a bangla blog...but i m so...stupid..!!.. i dare to write in english.... please bhaia apu sobay amake maf kore diben.... its not that i m good at english.... but still i type a bit faster in english than bangla..... suddenly some1 will call me... and i will have to leave... r kakhonoy shesh hobe na ei lekha..... Aj pohela boishakh chilo.... whole country jumpped over to celebrate this occasion... it was wonderfull to roam around .... walk along the streets.. shotti ashadharon... ABALBRIDDHOBONITA......... sobay akshathe rastai neme eshechilo.. to celebrate... ami jani na... prithibite r koiti jati amon shabolil bhabe.. bhedabhed bhule... kono occasion k celebrate kore... except any religious occasion.... Bcoz of my type of job/profession i just cant always come down to the ppl to celebrate breaking the chain... all the day i was moving around the city... with my jeep... that was my duty... PATROLLING.... i saw..beautiful ladies.. smart guys... cute,sweet kids.. happy couples... aged ppl.... they were so colorfull ...so bright... all the city was ..dazzling... shining....... Everything were fine.. and beautiful... xcept.. my mind... i was feeling so lonly.. so broken... broken into pieces... so lost in this beautiful world... in life smtime... ppl need somthing... things i need now... will not b of any use once i m 30/35..... i was feeling i should have som1 who cares for me... who thinks for me... and those thoughts make som1 smile... som1 calling me days and nights.. som1 4 whome i feel ... feel somthing different.. whose thoughts make me feel to get closer to her.. SOMTHING VERY VERY FUNNY...(is it really funny!!!!!!!!)...... i dont know... All around the city there were thousands of girls.. roaming with guys.. friends.. parents... isnt there som1 for me... ??? ..may b som1 is there waiting for me.. thinking the same thing... som1 may b there feeling all the same....like me.... its all gussing... all thinking... thinking dosnt give anything to ppl... i understand.. even i think... every1 thinks.. coz it makes ppl laugh forgetting their age ... sit... time.. and i dont think (again thinking) som1 is there who dosnt like to feel good,.... Please ... forgive me... for writing in english... and moreover for writing all this stupid things......