At some point on my journey, I faded away little by little. I lost the self I once was. I was once happy & full of life and then the emptiness & loneliness set in. I was greeted by a harsh reality and part of me died inside. My belief in love, hope, friendship and trust was shattered. As I walked this path I saw uncertainty and darkness. Inside of me something had changed. At one point I felt bitterness and anger in my heart. I lost the part of me that felt loyalty and trust was a certain. The harsh reality of the real world set in while I listened to friends and family weigh in on what I should do, should not do or just didn’t say anything at all. I cried… many times … I lost friendships and relationships along the way but have gained so much more on this journey. Three months ago to the day a part of my heart died... This does not mean my heart hasn’t started healing or that I am not stronger for having gone through this it simply means that no matter how much you believe in something it can be gone in a moment.