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চট্টগ্রাম প্রকৌশল ও প্রযুক্তি বিশ্ববিদ্যালয়ের কম্পিউটার বিজ্ঞান ও কৌশল বিভাগের একটি ব্যাচের ছাত্রদের (দুঃখজনক হলেও তাঁরা আমার নিজের ব্যাচ) অযৌক্তিক, গ্রহণঅযোগ্য, একরোখা, স্বেচ্ছাচারী ও নৃশংস সিদ্ধান্তের প্রতিবাদে একই বিভাগের গ্রুপ মেইলে পাঠিয়েছিলাম একটি মর্মস্পর্শী চিঠি, যা পড়ে প্রতিবাদে মুখর হয়ে উঠে ওরা, এক দল সহমর্মিতা জানায়, আর এক দল উপদেশ দেয়। আমি সব দলকেই ধন্যবাদ জানাই তাঁদের সাড়া দেয়ার জন্য। আর আমার ক্লাসের বন্ধুদের প্রতি বলি-সব কিছুরই শেষ আছে। আমি তোমাদের অমঙ্গল কামনা করিনি কখনোই, তবু তোমরা নিজেদের আরাম-আয়েশের সুবিধার্থে আমার এত বড় ক্ষতিটা কেন করেছিলে? অন্তত বন্ধুরা বন্ধুদের পাশে দাঁড়ায়, এটাও মিথ্যা প্রমাণ করে দিয়েছিলে তোমরা।....এখানে তুলে দিলাম সেই চিঠি, কারণ সাহিত্যমানে এটি অসাধারণ, এবং মূল বক্তব্য জানা দরকার সকলের। আমি আমার কোন বন্ধু, কোন শিক্ষক বা আমার বিশ্ববিদ্যালয়ের সম্মান ক্ষুণ্ন করার জন্য এটি দিলাম না, আমি দিলাম এটির সাহিত্যমানের বিচারে। এ ব্যাপারে দ্বিমত পোষণ করার সুযোগ নেই। Dear CSECUET family members, It is the first time I am writing to this group. Before now, there gone numerous issues on which I thought to convey my message to the members of this group, but I seized patience grasping that there are more intelligent, reliable, sagacious and well-known personnel who could illustrate the issue going on and suggest a way to take fruitful decision. But relying on those respected members of my beloved CSECUET family and keeping thyself isolated and abandoned from everything else, I noticed an interesting situation. Our seniors write merely to flourish their achievements, job switching news, sharing congratulations, advising juniors and providing job circulars for the passing batch. Of course, every achievement is of great pleasure; they deserve it to share their joys but it is astonishing that they rarely looked after the juniors’ tribulations and need. Our present students, on the other hand, use cse-groups only to beg help sometimes. It should be unruffled to ask for assistant regarding any difficulty, but asking only HELP is suspicious. But family should have meant something different. Well, it ought to be clarified that I’m not going to accuse them; rather I want to convey one of messages that hid itself inside me for long two and a half years. Like everyone of this university, I also got myself admitted with immense aspirations and dreams. I thought to be a good, well-behaved man; I wanted to be a good engineer to serve my country. But passing only 5 weeks in this campus, I experienced with dread that getting a glorious uncertain closing for a CUET student is really too simple. Before coming to CUET, I heard that only 13+2+2=17 weeks is required to accomplish a semester; but I, being an unfortunate student of cursed 06 batch, needed 8 months to complete the exam of level-1,term-1. And after that, I was gifted 10 extra days for convocation in 1,2; almost one month meaningless vacation for the Holy Ramadan in 2.1; accurate 46 days shut-off for Niyon Bhai’s mishap in 2,2; several days extra mid-term for grouping clash in 2,2 and, I still don’t know how long I have to really wait for being a graduate when each year a comic named ‘short-term’ fetches 40 days. I didn’t mention the term ‘auto’, though it is still snatching many days of my career. Sorrowfully, yet no senior took any step to make the juniors apprehend the importance of passing fast in the present competitive era. Fact that other departments form an issue, but if CSE wants from heart, we can continue classes even when the national issues continue. There was no mail in csegeoups for the last two years that can signify the importance of passing out soon. I believe that my seniors consider this concern less important than sharing job switching news and different circulars. Yes, they have now job, they have surety of receiving a handsome amount as soon as the month is over, they can take any decision regarding their personal matter, they are now not worried about the distance between dreams and making it fulfill, they can touch their dreams whenever they want; THEN WHY SHOULD THEY THINK ABOUT MY FUTURE? What's their benefit? If I even pass away due to the beckoning of breaking the dreams of my life, they care nothing about me. This is the way the world really thinks about. If so, why is there ridiculous buzzword CSEFAMILY? Let it just be abolished. At least I, personally, abhor such so-called buzzwords. Again, in current 3-1, I observed that my class-mates dropped an application in the department that they want mid-term vacation from the beginning of the Holy Ramadan whereas they know avoiding this mid-term vacation and continuing classes in Ramadan, we can step forward. Yes, I know that joining classes with fasting is practicably a hard task. But if we were in job now, would our offices grant full-month vacation? Can it be any logic? I know, my beloved friends will apprehend the truth later, but they will cost nothing for it. But for me, it may cost everything. I always wonder since my childhood that those who never say their daily prayers detonate much just before Holy Ramadan arrives. Allah has given me opportunity to say regular prayers and therefore, fasting is not a big problem for me. But who is out of Salah, Tarabi/Fast must be a problem for them. But we should know that Salah is the primary key of Islam. Fasting comes only after Salah. We cannot expect second pillar of Islam from who did not build the first one. They are not taking vacation for praying and fasting during Holy Ramadan, they just would like to take rest. I pray for them so that Allah may grant their sudden religious feelings forever. Therefore, after killing your many valuable moments, I would like to inform you that, you please remain as you were before reading this mail, I don’t like to bother you ever. I am a very simple, shabby, introvert and pale one. I am not a computer system that my life can be recovered. I have lost these days forever and they will never comeback. I am human and I want to breathe my last as human. As closing after closing is going on in my academic life and it keeps me away from fulfilling my dreams, I have decided that I will commit suicide if I ever lose my personal race due to being late. But I will fight as long as I can, I won’t be defeated before I lose. I let my seniors to share joys and congrats, I let my classmates to enjoy vacations, I let everyone do whatever they like but simply I don't care. But if Allah asks me on the day of resurrection why I committed unforgivable sin suicide, I will keep quiet and then perhaps be sent to the hell, but I won't accuse my CSEFAMILY or this university, I promise! Though my emotions cannot grasp, my feelings cannot perceive, my mind cannot apprehend; I must be respectful to everyone. They have right to do whatever they like. They never knew me, they have just gone through my words for the first time and, definitely, they will forget me moments later. IT is a field of much pressure, here my reminiscence does not make any difference. If I heart anyone, it's what I didn't want. Apologizing- Mahmud Hasan.