বনফুল Hi, Mommy. I’m your baby. You don’t know me yet, I’monly a fewweeks old. You’re going tofind out about me soon,though, I promise....Let me tell you some thingsabout me. My name is Angeland I'm a girl,and I’ve got beautiful browneyes and black hair. Well, Idon’t have it yet, but Iwill when I’m born. I’m goingto be your only child, andyou’ll call meyour one and only. I’m goingto grow up without a daddymostly, but wehave each other. We’ll helpeach other, and love eachother. I want tobe a doctor when I grow up.You found out about metoday, Mommy! You were soexcited, you couldn’twait to tell everyone. All youcould do all day was smile,and life wasperfect. You have a beautifulsmile, Mommy. It will be thefirst face Iwill see in my life, and it willbe the best thing I see in mylife. Iknow it already.Today was the day you toldDaddy. You were so excitedto tell him aboutme! …He wasn’t happy,Mommy. He kind of got angry.I don’t think thatyou noticed, but he did. Hestarted to talk aboutsomething calledwedlock, and money, andbills, and stuff I don’t think Iunderstandyet. You were still happy,though, so it was okay. Thenhe didsomething scary, Mommy. Hehit you. I could feel you fallbackward, andyour hands flying up toprotect me. I was okay… but Iwas very sadfor you. You were cryingthen, Mommy. That’s a soundI don’t like. Itdoesn’t make me feel good. Itmade me cry, too. He saidsorry after,and he hugged you again. Youforgave him, Mommy, but I’mnot sure if Ido. It wasn’t right. You say heloves you… why would hehurt you? Idon’t like it, Mommy.Finally, you can see me! Yourstomach is a little bit bigger,andyou’re so proud of me! Youwent out with your mommyto buy new clothes,and you were so so so happy.You sing to me, too. You havethe mostbeautiful voice in the wholewide world. When you sing iswhen I’mhappiest. And you talk to me,and I feel safe. So safe. Youjust waitand see, Mommy. When I amborn I will be perfect just foryou. I willmake you proud, and I willlove you with all of my heart.I can move my hands andfeet now, Mommy. I do itbecause you put yourhands on your belly to feelme, and I giggle. You giggle,too. I loveyou, Mommy.Daddy came to see you today,Mommy. I got really scared.He was actingfunny and he wasn’t talkingright. He said he didn’t wantyou. I don’tknow why, but that’s whathe said. And he hit you again. Igot angry,Mommy. When I grow up Ipromise I won’t let you gethurt! I promise toprotect you. Daddy is bad. Idon’t care if you think that heis a goodperson, I think he’s bad. Buthe hit you, and he said hedidn’t wantus. He doesn’t like me. Whydoesn’t he like me, Mommy?You didn’t talk to me tonight,Mommy. Is everything okay?It’s been three days since yousaw Daddy. You haven’ttalked to me ortouched me or anything sincethat. Don’t you still love me,Mommy? Istill love you. I think you feelsad. The only time I feel you iswhenyou sleep. You sleep funny,kind of curled up on your side.And you hugme with your arms, and I feelsafe and warm again. Whydon’t you dothat when you’re awake, anymore?I’m 21 weeks old today,Mommy. Aren’t you proud ofme? We’re goingsomewhere today, and it’ssomewhere new. I’m excited.It looks like ahospital, too. I want to be adoctor when I grow up,Mommy. Did I tellyou that? I hope you’re asexcited as I am. I can’t wait.…Mommy, I’m getting scared.Your heart is still beating, butI don’tknow what you are thinking.The doctor is talking to you. Ithinksomething’s going to happensoon. I’m really, really, reallyscared,Mommy. Please tell me youlove me. Then I will feel safeagain. I loveyou!Mommy, what are they doingto me!? It hurts! Please makethem stop! Itfeels bad! Please, Mommy,please please help me! Makethem stop!Don’t worry Mommy, I’m safe.I’m in heaven with the angelsnow. Theytold me what you did, andthey said it’s called anabortion.Why, Mommy? Why did youdo it? Don’t you love me anymore? Why did youget rid of me? I’m really,really, really sorry if I didsomethingwrong, Mommy. I love you,Mommy! I love you with all ofmy heart. Whydon’t you love me? What did Ido to deserve what they didto me? I wantto live, Mommy! Please! Itreally, really hurts to see younot careabout me, and not talk to me.Didn’t I love you enough?Please sayyou’ll keep me, Mommy! Iwant to live smile and watchthe clouds andsee your face and grow upand be a doctor. I don’t wantto be here, Iwant you to love me again!I’m really really really sorry ifI didsomething wrong. I love you! Ilove you, Mommy. ♥ Everyabortion is just…One more heart that wasstopped.Two more eyesthat will never see.Twomore hands that will nevertouch.Two more legs thatwill never run. One moremouth that will never speak