I am what I am and that's how I would be. No I am not stubborn. I just want to be myself. আমি অনেক লেখা লিখেছি, খুব স্বাচ্ছ্যন্দ নিয়েই লিখেছি এতদিন। কিন্তু এই লেখাটা নিয়ে গতদুইদিন ধরে বসে আছি। হাত চলছেনা। এতটা কষ্ট নিয়ে এতটা ক্রোধ নিয়ে কখনও কোনও পোস্ট দেইনি এর আগে। আজ আমি অনেক বেশি আবেগাপ্লুত।

পাঠকদের কাছে অনুরোধ, যেন ধৈর্য নিয়ে আমার এই লেখা শেষ পর্যন্ত পড়েন। আমার ইউনিভার্সিটির ছোটভাই এবং ছোটবোন ইফতেখার ও মুনিরা তাদের জীবনের সবচেয়ে বড় পরীক্ষার সম্মুখীন। আল্লাহ তাদের একটি পুত্রসন্তান দিয়েছিলেন, আবার বাবুটাকে নিয়েও গি্যেছেন তাঁর কাছে। আমরা জানি জীবন-মৃত্যু সবই আল্লাহ্র হাতে। তবু প্রতিটা মৃত্যুর পেছনে কিছু কার্যকারণ আল্লাহ্তাআলা ঠিক করে দেন, যাতে আমাদের জন্য মৃত্যুকে মেনে নিতে সহজ হয়।

আমি ইফতেখারের ফেইসবুকের কিছু স্ট্যাটাস এবং ওর একটা নোট ওর অনুমতি-সাপেক্ষে আজ আমার এই পোস্ট-এ শেয়ার করছি। যাতে আর কোনও বাবা-মার নবজাতকের পরিণতি ওদের বাচ্চার মত নাহয়। April 10 at 2011 12:08 PM Nervous. Wife admitted in hospital with a bad cold and high fever. Wouldnt be such a big worry otherwise. But its quite worrisome given that she is 35weeks pregnant. April 12 at 12:27pm All my friends, family and well wishers - please pray for my son and my wife. Munira and I have been blessed with a baby boy this morning. Since its a prematured baby, they had to put him on oxygen support in the NICU. April 12 at 12:27pm Munira is stable and doing alright now; she suffered a lot in the last couple of days with acute viral infection. Thats the reason for the early arrival of the little one. Allah is the greatest and He knows better than all. April 12 at 9:33pm Ayaan got his mother's eyes, his father's nose, and his dada's blood group! April 14 at 11:53pm Amar pola incubator er bhetor shuye shuyeo mood maare... April 16 at 5:32pm Munirake bashay niye ashlam. Ayaan aro kichudin incubator support e thakbe. Pichchike hospital e fele ashte bukta bhenge jachchilo... April 26 at 9:51pm Patent Ductus Arteriosus. April 27 at 4:11pm Oh Allah, our sole God and Saviour, please help my child. April 27 at 10:15pm After 15 days in the NICU, after showing good progress in his lungs maturation and PDA closure, he suddenly takes a dip and goes in ventilation support. Oxygen, BP, Heart rate - everything deteriorated. May Allah help us come out of this deadly test. April 28 at 9:19pm Ar to parina Allah... Ar koto punishment diba? Ar koto porikkha? April 29 at 3:19pm Allah amar babutake nijer kache niye gese. ইফতেখার কিংবা মুনিরা কে আমি আজ পর্যন্ত একটা ফোন করতে পারিনি, চোখ বন্ধ করে আমি নিজেকে ওদের জায়গায় বসিয়ে ওদের কষ্টটা বোঝার চেষ্টা করেছি, কিন্তু এত ভয়ানক সেই চিন্তা, আমি সহ্য করতে পারিনি। আমি সহ্য করতে পারিনি। গতকাল বহুদিন পরে ইফতেখারের ফেইসবুকে আমি ওর এই নোট-টা পড়লাম।

স্তম্ভিত হয়ে গেলাম। আমি চাই ব্লগের পাঠকরা এই নোট পড়ুক। তাই ইফিতেখারের অনুমতি নিয়ে আমি ওর এই নোট আপনাদের কাছে তুলে দিলাম। Had to vent out some of it by Iftekhar Hasan on Thursday, May 12, 2011 at 8:42am My opinion about United's NICU has changed forever. Their ward was full of infectious germs and 3-4 more babies went down with the same infection as my son. 1 more baby died. They dont know how to treat Septocemia. They have no idea about newborn's critical care. All they do is keep every single baby born in United in the NICU giving the common excuse of 'RDS'. Premature or fullterm, no matter what, they will invariably give this same excuse to keep every baby born at United in their NICU. They dont give basic treatment, but give unnecessary strong antibiotics, and just try to prolong the baby's stay. My baby could have returned home within a week of birth, if they were sincere. Every single test, every single medication was started at least 2-3 days delayed. All they wanted was to prolong the stay and earn money. Their NICU was so filthy and unfit for babies, they had to close the ward for 2 days to clean it, after my son died. I wont get my son back. Otherwise, I would have screwed the Hospital and its NICU doctors with massive lawsuits. Till the last day of my life, I will badmouth about this hospital to everybody I ever meet. এই নোটের সাথে প্রচুর মন্তব্য ছিল। আমি কিছু কিছু এখানে জনস্বার্থে তুলে দিলাম।

তবে একটা সিঙ্গেল মন্তব্য আমি সেখানে পাইনি, যার দ্বারা কিনা এই ঘটনার ভিন্ন কোনও ব্যাখ্যা পাওয়া যায়। Mayukh Rahman Bro U won't get him back but don't you think its still your responsibility to screw them so that no more newborns go through this and no parents face what you are facing? May 12 at 8:50am Mohammad Mushfiqur Rahman I have had horrible experience at United as well. Not as bad as yours, but they are rubbish at almost everything other than making money. May 12 at 8:56am Musarrat Islam well, my sister in law also faced it. but she got the baby discharged on request from there within 1 week and the baby got well within couple of days after coming back home. the hospital went through different tests which were not suitable for the baby. May 12 at 9:30am Parisa T. Karim Bhaiya, cudn't help myself from writing this. My li'l cousin who was born there last november was kept there for approx. 45 days. During that unnecessarily prolonged stay, they couldn't find that he had a heart defect even though they ran v...arious tests every other day n kept on shoving medicines which did nothing 2 help his condition. By Allah's grace though my aunt decided 2 get him discharged n his heart condition was detected by an outside specialist. Now I see that it wasn't a mistake on their part, rather an unique strategy 2 earn money. I think u should not let them get away with no consequences for the pain they have caused u n others n also for the pain they r gonna cause to other parents if they r let 2 continue w/ this. n May Allah grant ur special little Angel the best in heaven! May 12 at 12:13pm Tariqul Haque Iftekar till today didn't get any courage to call u or munira. Probably i suggested you to take opinion of other doctors cos i went through the same pain. In my case, Holy Family didn't even notice the changes in NICU, Square Hospital refus...e to take my baby as there was no guarantee of his survival. I asked me to give the guarantee- how sad. Lastly Salauddin clinic took him, did thousands diagnosis on that 3 days kid in 3-4 hour. My son couldn't take that load and left us. @ Sumaiya Sadia Huda, bhabi creating awareness will not affect this criminals, they need more than this. Can u suggest- how can u do? As a poor father, i want to do something May 12 at 3:42pm Saad Jashim A crime of this nature should not go unpunished, nor should anyone rest till justice is brought onto those who take such incidences as a means of making money. There are so many things that can be done to make such greedy business more and ...more difficult to do. I know that there is nothing that can bring Ayaan back to you but if u keep silent today then a lot of angels will go through the same fate. I do not want to burden your minds and hearts with anymore grief as u have far more than one can possibly bear. But I would request u to avenge Ayaan's murder and those of the countless other hopes and dreams shattered by these monsters. I would urge u to start something that can bring these people to the docks foe their crimes against humanity. I boil in anger when I hear of how they snatched away ur lives for just a few bucks. I wish that someone would do something about it. My rage forces me to beg u to sue them, publish the incidence on all leading print media, create a facebook page that lists these doctors and create a group that will force the authorities to investigate their deeds. May 12 at 7:38pm Afsana Hasan Tithi My friend also lost her 1 week old baby due to infection that the baby got from square hospital. It's a common thing in BD. People loose their loved ones from infections acquired at the hospitals. May 16 at 3:05pm Shafqat Anwar Iftekhar, I have just noticed your note. I would like to share this in my blog along with the comments. Please let me know if you agree. Every human being has the right to get the best treatment and when u spend a lot of money, it is a must. ...And when it comes to babies, they should put the bestest effort to let the newborn to 'live' in the beautiful world. My second baby went thru a lot of complications during and before birth, but Alhamdulillah she was born in Central Hospital. It's a miracle she's now healthy and alive I can't imagine what pain u r going thru. But i know I went insane when I feared losing my unborn... The Almighty specially looks after the babies deprived of parent's care, in a special place in the Heaven. You'll meet ur baby right there brother, Allah is there. 16 hours ago via Facebook Mobile আমার লেখার আর কোনও ভাষা আজ নেই। আমি জানি এবং মনে-প্রাণে বিশ্বাস করি বিশ্বচরাচরে যা কিছু ঘটবে, সবই আল্লাহ্র ইচ্ছা। কিন্তু আল্লাহ্ আমাদের মস্তিষ্ক এবং শরীরের জোর দিয়েছেন। তিনি আমাদের বিবেক দিয়েছেন নিজেদের সাধ্য এবং সামর্থ্য অনুযায়ী চেষ্টা করার।

একটি হাসপাতাল যখন ব্যাবসা-প্রতিষ্ঠানে পরিণত হয়, ডাক্তারের মত পেশা যখন ব্যবসায়িক স্বার্থের কাছে বিবেক বেচে দেয়, তখন আমরা সকলেই ইফতেখার-মুনিরার মত অসহায়। ইফতেখারের আর দুটো ফেইসবুক স্ট্যাটাস দিয়ে লেখা শেষ করলাম। 7 days already. But feels like just yesterday. May Allah give our baby all the love and fun and care and smile in Heaven... that we couldnt give him. May 6 at 1:08pm via Mobile Web A child that loses its parent is called orphan. A spouse who loses a partner is called widow/widower. There is no name for the parents who lose their child. Because there's no word to describe their pain. 22 hours ago via Mobile Web ।